(020) backdated to the middle of the truth flood

[gotgirlballs]

I hate this stupid flood. It's fucking retarded, is what it is. I'm supposed to tell the truth whenever someone asks me? Yeah right.

[And here she goes, saying things she didn't intend to. This is what you get for asking yourself questions in public during a truth flood, Denise.]

I can't even be open with my family, much less you assholes. I hate being vulnerable. That's why I close myself off--why I bully people. Because vulnerability fucking sucks and I can't handle it.

...shit.


[OOC: I'll be really slow tagging this, as I'm still in California. I just happen to be awake much earlier than my friend today :P Also, I'm sorry if her use of the word "retarded" is offensive to anyone, but this is basically how she talks. :c ]

Comments

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

Go fuck yourself, KFC.

[requiresssacrifice]

Is it vulnerability you're really afraid of, or inadequacy?

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

Vulnerability. Sucks that isn't what you wanted to hear, huh?

[requiresssacrifice]

I was expecting it, given you already admitted it. The other would've simply been a happy bonus.

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

Sucks for you.

[requiresssacrifice]

Luckily, your inane revelation was amusing enough in itself.

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

Feel free to laugh about it. Preferably where I don't have to hear your creepy, gayer Darth Vader voice.

[requiresssacrifice]

I don't sound like Darth Vader! [Pause] OR GAY!

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

You're a tinier, gayer Darth Vader. Is the force strong with you? Do you spend your time building little bedazzled Death Stars?

[requiresssacrifice]

No! I'm-- This is-- MY HEIGHT IS AVERAGE!

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

Hey Rex, how bad do you feel when people treat you like some sort of subhuman 'cause of your scars?

[requiresssacrifice]

Murderous, which is, incidentally, how I feel whenever I talk to you. How do you feel about being an emotionally stunted, overgrown child? Do you ever long to find that person you can finally be vulnerable with?

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

I'm not a goddamn child, and the only thing I feel about it is nervousness that people will give up on me and not push me to be better than how I am now.

I didn't until JD and Turk fucked that up and pushed me into something deeper with Drew. Now I think I might and I don't wanna acknowledge that.

[requiresssacrifice]

Have people given up on you?

Aww. Do you wonder if Drew feels the same way?

[gotgirlballs.livejournal.com]

Some have. One guy at the hospital did, 'cause he decided I must be right. I yelled at him--bitched him out--until he changed his mind.

Yeah, like all the time.

[requiresssacrifice]

Well, isn't that pathetic.