gotgirlballs | (020) backdated to the middle of the truth flood

(020) backdated to the middle of the truth flood

I hate this stupid flood. It's fucking retarded, is what it is. I'm supposed to tell the truth whenever someone asks me? Yeah right.

[And here she goes, saying things she didn't intend to. This is what you get for asking yourself questions in public during a truth flood, Denise.]

I can't even be open with my family, much less you assholes. I hate being vulnerable. That's why I close myself off--why I bully people. Because vulnerability fucking sucks and I can't handle it.

...shit.

[OOC: I'll be really slow tagging this, as I'm still in California. I just happen to be awake much earlier than my friend today :P Also, I'm sorry if her use of the word "retarded" is offensive to anyone, but this is basically how she talks. :c ]

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...hey Parker, how do you really feel about your dad? Like, really deep-down?

Edited 2010-08-15 17:33 (UTC)

Yeah, I stopped listening after the second sentence.

Yeah, fuck you too, Rex.

I love him and I hate him.

...

Fuck you, Denise. Don't.

What do you hate him for, exactly?

Getting my mother killed.

Denise. Fucking stop. I mean it.

I'm doing this for you, not shits and giggles.

What about what he did to you as a kid?

No you're not. You're doing it for fucking kicks.

I don't know what you're talking about. [Reeepression.]

I'm turning this fucking off, Denise. I'm not playing this game anymore.

Ask me if I'm doing this for kicks. Go ahead, do it.

Your file says your dad sexually abused you, Parker.

Edited 2010-08-15 17:50 (UTC)

No! I'm-- This is-- MY HEIGHT IS AVERAGE!

Then why ask, if you're not prepared for a complicated answer?

[...he actually DIDN'T mean to do that. Rhetoric is a hard habit to break.]

I didn't know you'd be so boring and long-winded.

Hey Rex, how bad do you feel when people treat you like some sort of subhuman 'cause of your scars?

You must have done exceedingly well in medical school, then.

Top of my class, bitch.

Murderous, which is, incidentally, how I feel whenever I talk to you. How do you feel about being an emotionally stunted, overgrown child? Do you ever long to find that person you can finally be vulnerable with?

No it fucking doesn't.

He didn't!

I'm not a goddamn child, and the only thing I feel about it is nervousness that people will give up on me and not push me to be better than how I am now.

I didn't until JD and Turk fucked that up and pushed me into something deeper with Drew. Now I think I might and I don't wanna acknowledge that.

Edited 2010-08-15 17:56 (UTC)

It definitely does. And as far as I know, the files don't lie.

You seriously don't remember? Did you unconsciously or consciously force the memory down?

I don't know!

Look, it's probably the "sexuality" experiment with Jarod, all right? It was fucked up, but that's it.

It says your father did it. I can show you right where it's printed if you don't believe me.

No. I don't want to see it.

I don't remember, alright? I really don't, if it even happened!

Well, you gotta face it whether you read the file or not. Sucks, but you do.

Maybe that crazy shrink can make you remember something, y'know, tell you 'you're getting very sleepy' or whatever. Not the fear-gas guy, the fatty-fucker.

I don't have to fucking face anyone.

Don't even fucking think of telling anyone what's in that file, Denise. I don't need a god damn shrink.

Have people given up on you?

Aww. Do you wonder if Drew feels the same way?

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